I want to be THERE.
THERE is the place where we don’t discuss fertility treatments or how to pay for them.
THERE is when our family is complete and we can stop planning our next procedure.
My answer? No. We are not THERE yet.
Some couples know exactly the size family they want. They have sex, enjoy 9 months of pregnancy, give birth and repeat. Once the predetermined number of children is reached, their family is complete.
For me this is a hard decision to make. I’ve been wanting children for as long as I can remember. And when someone tells me I cannot have something, I really just want it more.
Right now we are at a crossroads. We are considering changing clinics and have a consultation to discuss a pre-pregnancy procedure. We will have the conversation again how much time and money we will invest in trying to get pregnant. Do we save the time, effort and money in trying for a pregnancy or should we consider putting that towards adopting again? The questions never stop until you are THERE. And we are just not THERE yet.
Infertility is a long journey. One that for us and many others seems like it will never be over. I don’t think I will ever get the satisfying moment in determining our family is done. The grief and loss is still here. With us everyday and keeping us in our journey.
Wishing you Peace, Love and Happiness wherever you are in your journey.